stalking

I have been totally stalking the shit out of practically all of the online fertility forums.  I have read countless success and failure stories of IUIs both donor and non.  I'm sure any of my fertile family and friends would think this is obsessive and unhealthy but I think it is has had quite the opposite effect.  I feel much more hopeful! 

I do wonder how anyone goes through any sort of infertility treatment without the education of blog/forum stalking?  I feel like I know so much more than I ever could have learned from my doctor or out of any book.

Next week DH and I both have our blood work scheduled, Jan 1 I will be ordering the samples, and sometime late January my first dIUI cycle will start.

I'm ready!

Cautiously optimistic

I have been frequenting several IF boards, reading countless blogs, and googling donor sperm iui over and over.  I am getting so excited!

I work all weekend so DH is going to look over the print-outs of my favorite donors this weekend so we can discuss them soon.  My thought is we should pick our 'top 3' so we have options.  We probably won't be ordering until January so this gives us back-up in case our favorite is sold-out or something.  I am trying to think of any and all things that can go wrong so I can be prepared, at least mentally.

Things we need to do:

1. Get our blood work done.  We just go the orders in the mail from Dr Alan so we need to get this done in the next couple of weeks.
2. Fill out California Cryobank's paperwork (we must sign something and Dr Alan must sign something and send it in)
3. Trim our favorite donors down to 3.
4. Order 3-4 vials! (Dr Alan's office has storage so this can be done weeks before the IUI, but not before Jan 1 due to FSA usage)
5. Call Dr Alan's office when January AF starts (should be around Jan 12) to get meds and get tentative IUI schedule!

I am feeling so good now that we have a plan.  I have more questions for Dr Alan's office but I hate calling them constantly...I am going to list them here so I can reference this post next time I have them on the phone...

1. I know I will be using clomid and estradiol...is there a trigger shot I will be using?  What is it?
2. How many ultrasounds can I expect?
3. Do you recommend 1 or 2 IUIs/cycle when using donor sperm?

I think that's it.  Anyone have any other questions I should be asking?

Have a great weekend!

hee hee

DH and I had a great day watching football (GO CHIEFS!!!).  This evening I said, so sometime this week can we look through the donors I have found?  He replied, "Let's do it tonight!".  I was really excited, then about 15 minutes later he fell asleep on the couch.  It kinda makes me laugh...and is infuriating.

I am going to call Dr Alan this week to order our blood work so we can get it done this week or next.  I need to talk to the office to see if a January attempt is feasible.   CD1 that month should be about Jan 12...I am going out of town Jan 14-17.  I have read about baseline ultrasounds being in the first few days of a cycle?  God there is so much I don't know!

So basically my preparation has been to obsessively read blogs about iuis....anyone know of a good one that is in depth about an iui with clomid cycle (donor or not)? Sometimes it feels like a blogger will skim over the appts, ultrasounds, meds, etc...maybe bc clomid and iuis aren't very fancy in the scheme of things.

I personally have things narrowed down to 6 different donors..3 criteria they must meet - Rh positive blood, CMV negative, and fair skin (DH and I are both practically albino :).  Other than that I based it on reading their profiles and trying to get an 'idea' about their personality.  Probably bullshit but whatever.

Have a great week everyone!

Thoughts from a drunk friend...

So... this weekend I was having a few drinks with my best friend.  I had told her earlier in the day about our plans for using donor sperm.  She had seemed very supportive of it at the time but evidently it took some booze to loosen her lips and allow her to air her concerns. Here they were:

-Won't it be too weird to be pregnant with another man's child?
-Will DH feel like it's not his baby?
-Isn't it weird to have some other guy's sperm inside of you?
-It just seems freaky, you know what I mean?

I am not mad at her for sharing, she didn't say anything that I hadn't thought at one time....BUT it got me to thinking about the reaction everyone else in my life will have.  Is my mom secretly thinking ths too?  Are DH's parents?  IS DH?

After thinking it about it for the last few days I decided it didn't really matter.  This is me and DH's decision, not anyone else's.  Also I am not going to waste my time second guessing my husband...if he came to me and told me this is what he wants and that he is ready then he must be.  He is not one to make rash decisions.  I am sure that, like me, he knows there are always other options and alternatives, how can we ever be 100% sure a decision is the right one?

I remember when using donor sperm first came up.  From that first second I knew deep down that even if a child is not related genetically to both of us it is OURS.  He or she would not exist if it hadn't been for us meeting, falling in love and deciding to share our lives with a child.  That makes that child OURS.

Out of nowhere

Last evening DH was working from home and I was half vegging in front of the tv/half doing laundry.  He comes up behind me and says, "So I think I'm ready to move forward with this donor stuff".  Since we had already pretty much agreed on this I just kinda said, "yeah I know".  But by the look on his face I knew he meant more by it.  He said, "No I mean let's do it sooner, like maybe January."  Wow!  Before this he was all about completely finishing his doctorate before we move forward.  I really don't know what it is that made him change his mind, we haven't even talked about it in awhile.  Our counseling appointments were over a few weeks ago too so I don't think that's it.  Maybe he just suddenly wants a kid as soon as possible like I do!

UMM so wow!  I need to call the RE's office to find out what freaking sperm bank they use, and what other stuff I need to know!  Also I have to call the counselor's office to have her fax a letter to my RE saying we have talked through using a donor.

February is actually more realistic because I have a huge certification test mid January and a trip planned...but I am so excited that we will probably try in February! Also March, April and May are pretty wide open for trying!   June and July are busy with different weddings and travel so that was worrying me because before that was probably when we were going to start trying.  Now I will hopefully be pregnant by then and if I'm not I imagine after 4 months of trying a 2 month break would be welcome.

Oh I am sooo stoked! I am off to make phone calls now.  YAY!