My nieces...

are the most amazing girls ever.  Seriously!  I was able to spend some time with them this weekend and it was wonderful.  Spending a lot of time with an 18 month old did seem to mess with my hormones or something...I cried during our flight home.  DH kept asking what was wrong and I couldn't vocalize what it was...until I realized it was baby hunger. 

I went to counseilng again.  I highly recommend it to anyone who is struggling! 

I hope everyone is having a good week!  I'm excited for the new season of 16 and Pregnant starting tonight :)

Counseling

Our first counseling appt was great!  It felt good to be in a neutral 'safe' place and be able to talk through some things. 

Tentative plan? Once again we are leaning towards dIUI for our first attempt.  Hubby feels good about it, I feel good about it, our finances feel good about it, our family feels good about it (although I have some doubts about the in-laws, mostly his mom) so it seems a go!  We are still planning on waiting for DH's damn doctorate to be done which will be this April.

I'm excited!  I hope this stays firmly in place as the plan for awhile...I can't take much more wavering around!

It's been awhile

I haven't posted forever...which is a good thing really.  It means I haven't felt the need to vent or get support...I suppose that's a sign of health!  BUT I missed writing and reading what's going on with everyone. Here's what's new with me:

• Went to Vegas with the hubby.  Had a BLAST!!!
• I have been working my tail off doing overtime....yuck.
• Lost and then gained back 7 pounds (see the Vegas trip:)
• Realized my husband has no idea what IVF entails:

While in Vegas I had a moment of sadness...for some reason there were babies EVERYWHERE and it got me thinking.  I said, "Wouldn't it be so cool if a year from now we are pregnant?".  He looked at me with a seriously inquisitive face and said, "There is no reason why we won't be".  Ummmm.  I have lots of reasons!  We don't have enough sperm to work with.  We don't have enough money for IVF.  IVF won't necessarily work.  We might be to scared to use donor sperm.  We have shitty luck and it is seriously hard to imagine something going our way for once.

But I digress.

The great thing about his statement is it made me sad/angry/horrified for about 30 seconds.  Then I laughed. Hard.  I mean, how insanely ridiculous???  This is obviously a sign that before IVF he needs some major EDUCATION.  Jeesh.

Tomorrow we are going in for a couples counseling session.  I am kinda looking forward to it.  I am curious to know what emotional obstacles there are to overcome if we go the donor sperm route...because quite frankly that remains to be the option that I think is most feasible for our situation right now.

I am going to try to catch up on all of your fabulous blogs over the weekend...I hope I read only good news!!!