I feel like a new person. Physically there are still some unwanted symptoms but much less severe - more like I expected with pregnancy. I have energy suddenly. I want to clean my house. And good Lord I'm hungry constantly!!
Right now I am just overflowing with love and gratitude for this baby. This was our one shot - for financial reasons we agreed we could only try this once. We signed up for only the one cycle program. We had no frozen embryos. Our hopes laid with 2 embryos - a perfect 5aa and a medium to low grade 1bb. I'm assuming the 5aa is the one that implanted. My one shot out of 19 eggs retrieved.
I had faced a possibility of life without children. Knock on wood, I don't think that life is going to come to pass.
I love you little sweet pea.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
11 weeks
Well, I tomorrow I am 11 weeks. But I have the energy to blog now so blog I must!
Dare I say I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel? Thanks to everyone who commented on my last post. I can't begin to tell you how much it meant to me to be HEARD. It's such a weird place to be in. I don't feel comfortable complaining to many people in real life (except DH, boy I don't hold back with him). It was such a relief to spill my guts here.
As for how I'm feeling - constipation is mmmmuuuucccchhhh better. I think stopping the progesterone suppositories really helped. I also took some milk of magnesia and had one horrible day of reckoning in the bathroom that felt like the apocalypse. That REALLY helped.
Nausea continues but is less severe. No more dry heaving, which is such a relief. I'm just trying to eat small amounts frequently. I am also relying on Zofran for the really bad days.
Best news? I rented a doppler :) I got it from Heartbeats at Home (google it, great company!). $24/month. I will probably keep it until I can feel the baby move. I was able to hear the heartbeat on it at 10w4d which I was very proud of :) I am going to try not to use it too frequently...just when I need some reassurance.
Next OB appt next week at 12 weeks. Next u/s at 18 weeks - and DH and I are still discussing whether we will find out the sex or not. (I am dying to, he wants to wait)
Love you all. I read through some blogs today and am trying to catch up on your lives. xoxo
Dare I say I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel? Thanks to everyone who commented on my last post. I can't begin to tell you how much it meant to me to be HEARD. It's such a weird place to be in. I don't feel comfortable complaining to many people in real life (except DH, boy I don't hold back with him). It was such a relief to spill my guts here.
As for how I'm feeling - constipation is mmmmuuuucccchhhh better. I think stopping the progesterone suppositories really helped. I also took some milk of magnesia and had one horrible day of reckoning in the bathroom that felt like the apocalypse. That REALLY helped.
Nausea continues but is less severe. No more dry heaving, which is such a relief. I'm just trying to eat small amounts frequently. I am also relying on Zofran for the really bad days.
Best news? I rented a doppler :) I got it from Heartbeats at Home (google it, great company!). $24/month. I will probably keep it until I can feel the baby move. I was able to hear the heartbeat on it at 10w4d which I was very proud of :) I am going to try not to use it too frequently...just when I need some reassurance.
Next OB appt next week at 12 weeks. Next u/s at 18 weeks - and DH and I are still discussing whether we will find out the sex or not. (I am dying to, he wants to wait)
Love you all. I read through some blogs today and am trying to catch up on your lives. xoxo
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
The post I swore I'd never write
But I feel I have to. If you don't want to hear how miserable it can be when you finally get pregnant please don't read this.
I am not good at pregnancy. My nausea and dry heaving is out of control. I am tired all of the time. I haven't had a real poop in 3 weeks. I sit on the toilet for an hour at a time, straining and huffing and puffing with almost no results. And what does result is rock hard.
I cry every day. I feel so miserable and yet at the same time feel so unbelievably guilty about it. I should just be happy and smile through my miseries. I am pregnant, it's what I've always wanted.
My first ob appt was ok. Too early for doppler (was 9w). I don't go back for 3 weeks and no more ultrasounds until 18 weeks. We have decided against any screenings because we are both terrified of a false positive.
My endometrin suppositories end this Thursday. Do you think stopping those will help this God awful constipation?
Sorry for the tmi.
And I swear when I am human again I am gonna comment my ass off on all of your blogs. Just know that I am rooting for you.
I am not good at pregnancy. My nausea and dry heaving is out of control. I am tired all of the time. I haven't had a real poop in 3 weeks. I sit on the toilet for an hour at a time, straining and huffing and puffing with almost no results. And what does result is rock hard.
I cry every day. I feel so miserable and yet at the same time feel so unbelievably guilty about it. I should just be happy and smile through my miseries. I am pregnant, it's what I've always wanted.
My first ob appt was ok. Too early for doppler (was 9w). I don't go back for 3 weeks and no more ultrasounds until 18 weeks. We have decided against any screenings because we are both terrified of a false positive.
My endometrin suppositories end this Thursday. Do you think stopping those will help this God awful constipation?
Sorry for the tmi.
And I swear when I am human again I am gonna comment my ass off on all of your blogs. Just know that I am rooting for you.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Wordless Wednesday
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
HOT
It's HOT here! I just got back to the midwest from a vacay in FL and it's hotter here than it was down there.
My 2nd u/s is tomorrow - I will be 8w6d. I am sooo nervous. Possibly even more nervous than I was for the first u/s. It's just been so long since I saw what was going on in there.
Nausea continues daily...I take a zofran almost every day. Totally worth it and I actually feel scared when I am not sick.
I hope to catch up on blogs the next few days - if I miss something major and don't comment I'm sorry!
My 2nd u/s is tomorrow - I will be 8w6d. I am sooo nervous. Possibly even more nervous than I was for the first u/s. It's just been so long since I saw what was going on in there.
Nausea continues daily...I take a zofran almost every day. Totally worth it and I actually feel scared when I am not sick.
I hope to catch up on blogs the next few days - if I miss something major and don't comment I'm sorry!
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