Still hurts

I was curious to find out if pregnancy would 'cure' my infertile feelings.  Guess what?  It hasn't, it's numbed it at times, perhaps.  I don't hurt on a daily basis, I don't feel uncontrollable rage at every baby bump I see, I don't cry every time I see a baby on tv.  But I still see red when people make stupid comments, when people assume I am 'cured' by IVF.  Here are a few comments I have heard in the last few months -

• It's usually not as hard getting pregnant with the second one, I bet you'll get pregnant right away.
• What a blessing from God that you're pregnant!  I knew it would happen! (this only annoys me.  I do feel thankful to God or the spirits or whomever, but I am pregnant mostly because we paid a ton of money, went through an invasive procedure, and got so unbelievably lucky.  If I had sat on my laurels waiting for a miracle I have no doubt that I would not be pregnant right now, nor anytime in the future.
• I KNEW you were able to get pregnant!
• I bet you end up having 6 kids!

It is harder to get all worked up when I am standing there feeling my baby move around inside of me.  But it still makes me so fucking mad.  I always take the time to try to educate people.  For instance, when people talk about what a miracle this is I say something along the lines of, "It is a miracle.  I can't believe how lucky we are.  I'm so glad we went ahead and spent the $15,000 and decided to pursue IVF." That usually shuts people up.  Bringing up money and highly debatable medical science will do that.

On another note, pregnancy is going so great.  This second trimester is so amazing.  I have energy, I have no GI issues, I think my bump is cute, I get to wear elastic waist pants all the time, and my husband has been more attentive than ever.  I am lucky, I know that.  So lucky that I can't believe it.  

I hope you all get lucky soon.

What I'm thankful for...

1. I just slept for 6 hours and woke up feeling WAY BETTER! YAY!!!!!!!
2. DH - he slept on the couch with me tonight, made me dinner, called family when I wasn't up for it, held my hand and kissed me over and over again in recovery and has been my ROCK.
3. This blogging community - It was so great to wake up to such messages of hope and love.  It makes me feel so much more positive about this whole experience - reading your notes are better than acupuncture, massage and Circle and Bloom put together.
4. My heating pad
5. Vicodin
6. My coworkers who switched shifts with me and picked up the slack so I don't have to work until May 2.
7. Vitamin Water - it is so much better than gatorade!
8.  My eggs and DH's sperm becoming embryos today.  Grow babies, grow!  I so hope I get to meet one or two of you in 9 months.