Ugh ugh ugh!!!!!!!

I have a uterine polyp.  They found it during my sonohysterogram today.  It's 1cm and has to be removed.  Next week they will do a hysteroscopy under general anesthesia.  I've never had general so I'm kinda scared.  

They said it won't postpone my cycle at all so that's good I suppose.  

She said polyps are usually nothing but "4% of the time it ends up being cancer".  Wikipedia says only 0.5% of the time so I'm choosing to ignore that.

It's always something isn't it?

Trial transfer was fine.  She visualized both of my ovaries easily and saw "Many, many follicles".  Again, focusing on the good news.

Anyone have experience with hysteroscopy or polyps?

BCP Day 1

Just took my first official meds for this cycle!  Baby aspirin and birth control.  Here we go!

CD 2 baseline appt

My baseline appt was great!  Uterine lining was thin, 7 follicles on the right, 4 follicles seen on the left. My left ovary was "pushed up" against my uterus

 and hard to visualize, the nurse practitioner thought there were probably several more she couldn't see.

I just got the call with my lab results. FSH 8.7, Estradiol 24.   I am sooooo happy with those numbers.  Estradiol should be below 60 and FSH is in the perfect range.  When I first got my FSH level drawn like 3 years ago it was similar to what it is now.  2 years ago with our first IVF cycle it was 11.  This is in the borderline range - meaning possible low ovarian reserve.  SO now I've had 2 perfect levels and 1 borderline.  They say that your level is only as good as your highest value - but knowing that my AMH level is also great leads me to believe something was up with my cycle last time - I kind of remember spotting for a few days before what I thought was CD1, so maybe it was actually like CD5 or 6 when I got my labs drawn.

The NP said, "So everything looks great so far but obviously the Dr will keep in mind your last FSH level when determining your medication dosages."  So I guess I will be on high doses of stims again.  I mean that's great since last time we were obviously successful - but also my estradiol got up to over 7000 and I felt like absolute shit.  Hmmm.  Maybe I will see if we can start slightly lower then increase as we go.  Or I could just shut the hell up and leave it to the experts.

Birth control pills and baby aspirin start this Thursday, saline sonohysterogram and trial transfer on 7/17, begin Lupron 7/26, start stims 8/3.

Retrieval is looking to take place August 14.  O.M.G.

CD 1

So AF showed up today just one day late - I was obviously anxiously awaiting her arrival.  I called the clinic this morning and left them a message.  It's Sunday so I didn't expect much back - but 20 mins later they called and left me a voicemail.  I take this as a good omen of positive experiences to come :-)  I am to call back first thing in the morning and make an appt for my baseline u/s and 'day 3' labs Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday.  I am obviously excited to make sure I have no cysts or anything and am ready to begin - but I am also ready to have that official calendar!  I am a visual person - I need it laid out in front of me. 

I AM SO EXCITED!

July 1

It's July 1!  Which means our IVF cycle starts this month (yay!).

We are on a little lake getaway this weekend with my inlaws.  Poor Pipsqueak is sleeping in a pack n play in a closet - LOL.  Yesterday she woke at 4:53 am.  This was not ideal.  Today she slept til almost 6 so she's getting used to it I guess.  

My AMH level

My clinic told me below 0.2 is bad, between 0.2-1 is borderline above 1 is great, above 2 is excellent.  

My level is.....

6.7!!!!!

I'm so happy!!!   There are two different scales used so googling gave me weird results, but it seems 6.8 and above is probably PCOS.  Hmmmmm.  I really don't think I have that. Who knows though?  Since we can only conceive through Ivf anyway due to MFI it's kind of a moot point.

Now I'm even more excited to cycle!  The weird thing is I'm all confident and unstressed and feeling good.  Last time I was super negative, sure it wouldn't work and talking myself into a child free life.  I hope I'm not jinxing myself!

IVF #2, appt #1 recap

My first appt for this next round of IVF was amazing!!  I really didn't know what to expect - I knew I was meeting with the NP but wasn't really sure what else was going to happen.  Here's a recap:

- She reviewed the charts from my last (obviously successful) cycle. She said I had an "excellent response", "stimulated very well" and "had a wonderful percent of mature eggs after retrieval".  Since this was only 2 years ago and I'm only 32 she thinks I will also have a good response this time.

- She reviewed a calendar with possible dates : as soon as my next cycle starts (should be 1st week of July) I call their office, then go in either CD 2, 3, or 4 for blood work and u/s.  Start bcp and aspirin CD 5 for 2-4 weeks and lupron at some point (length of time depends on their office schedule - they do their egg retrievals grouped together) - then stim for 9-10 days, followed by egg retrieval and transfer.  She estimates the 2nd week of August would be retrieval/transfer.   She assumes I will again be put on menopur and bravelle but that the RE will decide everything based on my updated labs and u/s.

- I was informed that their office has a new embryologist. It made me sad as she was the one who made Pipsqueak!!!

BUT the NP told me since the new embryologist started they are experiencing a very high success rate and almost all patients are ending up with extra embryos to freeze.  She actually held up her arm and showed me her goosebumps, saying, "it just gives me chills how many people are getting pregnant right now.  We don't know what his secret is!".  Love it!

- I told her I was still a little haunted by my fsh of 11 last time. She said it meant absolutely nothing because I obviously made several eggs.  I asked if there was anything she could check to make me feel better so I had an AMH level drawn yesterday.  She said anything above 1.0 is great, anything under 0.19 is very very bad and anything in between is ok but not great.  I've never had one drawn  -  anyone have any insight?

I guess that's it. Nothing more to be done until July.  I had a last hurrah this week - my best friend stayed with us and we drank lots of beer :-).  No more from here on out. And dear god I need start cutting down on caffeine.  I've weaned down but am still having one cup of half caf coffee and 2 diet cokes a day.  Goal is no coffee and 1 diet coke (hard core addict :-). I'm going to continue running and walking and eating well.  (This also fell to the wayside this week!). 

Here goes nothin'!